What you need to do
 
By the way, digression/footnote
The 'animism' is wholly orthodox, not just enthusiastic hymn-writers.  From the Book of Common Prayer:

Benedicite, omnia opera.
ALL ye Works of the Lord, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Angels of the Lord, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Heavens, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Waters that be above the firmament, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O all ye Powers of the Lord, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Sun and Moon, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Stars of heaven, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Showers and Dew, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Winds of God, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Fire and Heat, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Winter and Summer, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Dews and Frosts, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Frost and Cold, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Ice and Snow, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Nights and Days, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Light and Darkness, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Lightnings and Clouds, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O let the Earth bless the Lord : yea, let it praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Mountains and Hills, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O all ye Green Things upon the earth, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Wells, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Seas and Floods, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Whales, and all that move in the waters, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O all ye Fowls of the air, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O all ye Beasts and Cattle, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Children of Men, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O let Israel bless the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Priests of the Lord, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Servants of the Lord, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye Spirits and Souls of the Righteous, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O ye holy and humble Men of heart, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
O Ananias, Azarias, and Misael, bless ye the Lord : praise him, and magnify him for ever.
Glory be to the Father, and to the Son : and to the Holy Ghost;
As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be : world without end. Amen.

Got that, all ye Green Things?
 
Or maybe you prefer ‘Hills of the North rejoice! River and mountain spring!  Hark to the advent voice! Valley and lowland sing!’ or:
All creatures of our God and King
Lift up your voice and with us sing,
Alleluia! Alleluia!
Thou burning sun with golden beam,
Thou silver moon with softer gleam!

Refrain

O praise Him! O praise Him!
Alleluia! Alleluia! Alleluia!

Thou rushing wind that art so strong
Ye clouds that sail in Heaven along,
O praise Him! Alleluia!
Thou rising moon, in praise rejoice,
Ye lights of evening, find a voice!
 
Etc.
 
I seem to have pasted in a shortened version
 
The original report of the 1851 Census reads as follows:
The most important fact which this investigation as to attendance brings Most important before us is, unquestionably, the alarming number of the non-attendants. Even fnquirj as to in the least unfavorable aspect of the figures just presented, and assuming (as attendance, no doubt is right) that the 5,288,294 absent every Sunday are not always the same individuals, it must be apparent that a sadly formidable portion of the English people are habitual neglecters of the public ordinances of religion….
An unquantifiable part of this was certainly the sense of a private and personal relationship with Jesus to which formal observance was irrelevant.  Anglican England, yes, I have some perceptions of it, it’s the place I grew up in.  Unlike Siobhan McGuckin and Micaela Plucinski.
The way we were: Anglican England
So there was this God chap whom you praised, not because he demanded it or would punish you if you didn't, but because you wanted to, it welled up out of you, especially if you were a river, mountain or other geological formation. After 12 years of a sort of wholly orthodox(1) animism presided over by a wholly benevolent Creator, you left school. You might have gone to church. Unless you were totally thick, you'd picked up the gist at school. You didn't necessarily go to church in 1851(2) and you didn't necessarily go to church in 1951.You'd been given the view that God and Jesus love you unconditionally, no matter, whatever, that they were there for you. So intense in popular hymns is the sense of the personal relationship that it's almost surprising anyone went to church at all. This probably didn't mean overmuch to you unless your life hit a rocky patch. Anglicanism may have struck noisier denominations and faiths as shallow, having been outwardly manifest as a few predictable remarks by the Archbishop of Canterbury at Christmas and Easter and on occasions of national joy or sorrow but popular Christianity contained an immovable layer of hymns which, whatever their failings from a Marxist and more broadly a social justice perspective in making the poor content with their lot, are utterly non-aggressive, non-vicious, dealing as they do with sheep and a Shepherd, healing streams and other pastoral elements (pastoral verging on pantheist - pastoral verging on pagan: 'The hornèd moon that shines by night/Mid her spangled sisters bright'), a babe in a manger, green hills far away and of course divine love (3). Of course we all became hippies, we were educated to become hippies.From all this the Old Testament was markedly lacking. It might as well not have existed, for all it had anything to do with religion.  Certainly we learned Bible stories, Moses in the bullrushes, Daniel in the lions' den, good stories but nothing to do with anything that mattered.  Prominent among the modern tedium is the insistence on 'Abrahamic faiths'.  I grew up in a Christian country, not one following in the footsteps of the patriarchs.

Consequently, whatever people's personal beliefs, the nation as a whole was benignly disposed towards the Church of England.  One might have marked intellectual objections to the Christian myth, but since no-one would dream of doing anything as crude as demand one believed it it was not cause for hostility.  It is hard to muster hostility towards divine love,  healing streams and vocal rock formations, however drivelling one might have thought them, and of course Jesus was evidently a good bloke, though possibly mad.
Most of the public face of religion today is crude and ugly, if not evidently evil.  It is repellent.  People are repelled.  The various clerics who respond to this revusion as though it were that of evil persons revolted by divine love, healing streams and vocal rock formations will quite possibly destroy Christianity in England.

If you did go to church, the vicar pointed out to you that you had sinned and would be forgiven if you admitted it in the standard Order of Morning Prayer

DEARLY beloved brethren, the Scripture moveth us, in sundry places, to acknowledge and confess our manifold sins and wickedness; and that we should not dissemble nor cloak them before the face of Almighty God our heavenly Father; but confess them with an humble, lowly, penitent, and obedient heart; to the end that we may obtain forgiveness of the same, by his infinite goodness and mercy. And although we ought, at all times, humbly to acknowledge our sins before God; yet ought we chiefly so to do, when we assemble and meet together to render thanks for the great benefits that we have received at his hands, to set forth his most worthy praise, to hear his most holy Word, and to ask those things which are requisite and necessary, as well for the body as the soul. Wherefore I pray and beseech you, as many as are here present, to accompany me with a pure heart, and humble voice, unto the throne of the heavenly grace, saying after me;

You weren't just there to wallow in how ghastly you were.

The Church of England was the church of anyone who wanted one. From Low to High it catered to most interpretations of Christianity. If you wanted to be difficult, which I suppose basically meant if theological niceties were an issue for you, you could go and be a Catholic or a Non-Conformist.

You could have a generally positive view of religion whether you believed or not. You could even think religion was pretty. You were not afraid and should not be because the Lord your shepherd was with you.

They did of course foul their nests most spectacularly over the ordination of women. Gender was absent from Anglican education.  We really had no idea of the festering nests of worms in the heads of some of the most avowedly devout. 
 
Prof Dawkins is not getting angry over healing streams.  Who the fuck is?  Intellectually precarious, of course, but if people want to stand in ice-cold water and go on to die of what they’re trying to heal, they’re not doing any harm to anyone else, and that was in any case hardly commonplace.   Loving healing streams is not believing in them.
 
This total filth that has been poured over England, fucked-up old baboons in jack-boots dribbling about the ‘evil’ of atheism.

From the inauguration of Cardinal Nichols:
At the installation of the Most Rev Vincent Nichols at Westminster Cathedral, his predecessor, Cardinal Cormac Murphy-O’Connor, described a lack of faith as “the greatest of evils” and blamed atheism for war and destruction, implying that it was a greater evil even than sin itself.....
 
In his homily he said: “Faith in God is not, as some would portray it today, a narrowing of the human mind or spirit. It is precisely the opposite. “Faith in God is the gift that takes us beyond our limited self, with all its incessant demands . . . Some today propose that faith and reason are crudely opposed, with the fervour of faith replacing good reason. This reduction of both faith and reason inhibits not only our search for truth but also the possibility of real dialogue.”
Cardinal Murphy-O’Connor went farther. Referring to the battles that will be won and lost in the effort to sustain the Christian presence in secular society, he said: “What is most crucial is the prayer that we express every day in the Our Father, when we say ‘deliver us from evil’. The evil we ask to be delivered from is not essentially the evil of sin, though that is clear, but in the mind of Jesus it is more importantly a loss of faith. For Jesus, the inability to believe in God and to live by faith is the greatest of evils.
“You see the things that result from this are an affront to human dignity, destruction of trust between peoples, the rule of egoism and the loss of peace. One can never have true justice, true peace, if God becomes meaningless to people.”
From The Times, 22nd May 2009, now behind a paywall
 
To the harmless civilized atheist of course belief in God may seem the principle and explanation of all moral deviations; to many, whether Christian or not, it would seem that on the contrary faith may underpin the clamourings of the limited self, claiming the forcing of its incontinent urges on others has divine sanction; it is love that takes us beyond them. 
 
A modest Christian education recalls 1 Corinthians:
 
1 Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, and have not charity, I am become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal. 2 And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, and have not charity, I am nothing. 3And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have not charity, it profiteth me nothing.
 
13 And now abideth faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity.
 
Perhaps at a later date Their Eminences might take this up with Paul, that same Paul?
 
Galatians 5:14 For all the law is fulfilled in one word, even in this; Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself
Matthew 22:37 Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.
38 This is the first and great commandment.
39 And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.
40 On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets.
Mark 12:30 And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment.
31 And the second is like, namely this, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. There is none other commandment greater than these
The CofE destroyed Christianity in England by wilfully siding with all that is vile about religion.
 
2089 Incredulity is the neglect of revealed truth or the willful refusal to assent to it. "Heresy is the obstinate post-baptismal denial of some truth which must be believed with divine and catholic faith, or it is likewise an obstinate doubt concerning the same; apostasy is the total repudiation of the Christian faith; schism is the refusal of submission to the Roman Pontiff or of communion with the members of the Church subject to him."11
Hope
2090 When God reveals Himself and calls him, man cannot fully respond to the divine love by his own powers. He must hope that God will give him the capacity to love Him in return and to act in conformity with the commandments of charity. Hope is the confident expectation of divine blessing and the beatific vision of God; it is also the fear of offending God's love and of incurring punishment.
2091The first commandment is also concerned with sins against hope, namely, despair and presumption:
By despair, man ceases to hope for his personal salvation from God, for help in attaining it or for the forgiveness of his sins. Despair is contrary to God's goodness, to his justice - for the Lord is faithful to his promises - and to his mercy.
2092 There are two kinds of presumption. Either man presumes upon his own capacities, (hoping to be able to save himself without help from on high), or he presumes upon God's almighty power or his mercy (hoping to obtain his forgiveness without conversion and glory without merit).
The Catechism of the Catholic Church
 
The limitations of reason within any given frame of reference are equally apparent.  Certainly reason may be utilized to demonsrate the workings of the Trinity or how the withering away of the state follows from the dictatorship of the proletariat, but the bars of the cage cannot be questioned.  It is of course explicit in the concept of revelation that there is that which reason may not touch.
 
So far as Search is infallible, the words ‘physics’ and ‘biology’ do not appear anywhere in the Catechism of the Catholic Church, ‘evolution’ only once and in a general not a scientific sense (‘the evolution of the liturgy’).
 
It does, however, say this:
 
The question about the origins of the world and of man has been the object of many scientific studies which have splendidly enriched our knowledge of the age and dimensions of the cosmos, the development of life-forms and the appearance of man. These discoveries invite us to even greater admiration for the greatness of the Creator, prompting us to give him thanks for all his works and for the understanding and wisdom he gives to scholars and researchers. With Solomon they can say: "It is he who gave me unerring knowledge of what exists, to know the structure of the world and the activity of the elements. . . for wisdom, the fashioner of all things, taught me."121
284 The great interest accorded to these studies is strongly stimulated by a question of another order, which goes beyond the proper domain of the natural sciences. It is not only a question of knowing when and how the universe arose physically, or when man appeared, but rather of discovering the meaning of such an origin: is the universe governed by chance, blind fate, anonymous necessity, or by a transcendent, intelligent and good Being called "God"? And if the world does come from God's wisdom and goodness, why is there evil? Where does it come from? Who is responsible for it? Is there any liberation from it?
285 Since the beginning the Christian faith has been challenged by responses to the question of origins that differ from its own. Ancient religions and cultures produced many myths concerning origins. Some philosophers have said that everything is God, that the world is God, or that the development of the world is the development of God (Pantheism). Others have said that the world is a necessary emanation arising from God and returning to him. Still others have affirmed the existence of two eternal principles, Good and Evil, Light and Darkness, locked, in permanent conflict (Dualism, Manichaeism). According to some of these conceptions, the world (at least the physical world) is evil, the product of a fall, and is thus to be rejected or left behind (Gnosticism). Some admit that the world was made by God, but as by a watch-maker who, once he has made a watch, abandons it to itself (Deism). Finally, others reject any transcendent origin for the world, but see it as merely the interplay of matter that has always existed (Materialism). All these attempts bear witness to the permanence and universality of the question of origins. This inquiry is distinctively human.
286 Human intelligence is surely already capable of finding a response to the question of origins. The existence of God the Creator can be known with certainty through his works, by the light of human reason,122 even if this knowledge is often obscured and disfigured by error. This is why faith comes to confirm and enlighten reason in the correct understanding of this truth: "By faith we understand that the world was created by the word of God, so that what is seen was made out of things which do not appear."123
 
The bars of the mental cage are clearly delineated.  Naturally they uphold their own beliefs, as would believers in any closed system, Marxist or Muslim. The problem is the chasm between them and those of us with open minds who might say, “Indeed my knowledge of the age and dimensions of the cosmos has been most splendidly enriched but I see no reason why your version of the frame of reference in which these things exist should be more real, more true, morally sounder, or in any other way superior.”  Like elements in Islam, which whatever its problems perhaps is fortunate in not having a similar central authority, they simply do not understand the open society and the free market in ideas, how inadequate it is to say one must have faith, how really rather sad it is to say that absence of faith is the greatest of evils, and so do not understand human liberty.
We want to talk about love and death and reality and illusion, time and timelessness, fear and love, self and other, about life the universe and everything in the terms these things actually exist, the terms of physics and biology, not the terms set by desert tribesmen, about the principles that inform the human condition, of course we want to talk about the human condition, thinking life always has and always will, and we'll take ideas from anywhere on the planet, and they want to talk about how women priests offend God. God wants your meat killed in a certain way, is obsessed with what you wear and even more obsessed with what you do in bed and with whom, and what we really need to do is just believe in them.
Since they offer nothing anyone wants, it’s hardly surprising there are few takers.   Pathetic, limited, and made vicious by their inadequacy.  This does not of course apply to individual parish priests of any denomination or creed.  There are priests who rock, rabbis and imams who rock, but the word from on high – forget it.
 
And by the way at the times in my varied schooling I had an Anglican education it was not for instance assumed that all the girls would be going on to university.  Gender simply wasn’t mentioned at all and it was by no means the case at Walberton and Binsted Church of England Primary School that anyone much was assumed to be going on to university.  There Mr Lygo-Baker, the Headmaster, told us that the sun always goes in at 3 pm on Good Friday, which is pretty much mad healing streams stuff, but of course the important bit is no compulsion to believe, no checking we were indoctrinated.   Three of us passed our 11+.  This was general education for Sussex children.  Similarly at Seaton County Primary School where I learned to play ‘The King of Love my Shepherd Is’ on the recorder and my lasting memories are of my form-master, Mr Firth, a 6’6” gentle giant ex-policeman and a lady with long grey hair loose down her shoulders who enormously enthusiastically taught us about fossils, with which of course the beach was littered, especially trilobytes.
 
What you need to do, which of course  you know and refuse to do, is stop thinking of these filth as doctors and nurses and/or religious and so possessed of any moral compass, understand science and medicine are big business, understand they are as bestial ruthless, dishonest, corrupt as any executive in a multi-national corporation, understand their religions are evil.   They are criminals.  They have committed and do commit many obvious major crimes. 
 
What ‘nurse’ jeers and sniggers at disability?  Why the jewel of the lymphoma team, the Lymphoma Association Clinical Nurse Specialist, the one-eyed orc Plucinski, an obscene filthy twisted animal that belongs in a cage in the Zoo. 
 
Has little Miss Micaela, who thinks everyone’s a fucking servant, bloody oozes it, got a rich daddy.  Is Daddy paying everyone off?  It’s a possibility. 
 
And I spent absolute hours padding through the Vatican archives and I thought: Bye-bye, Unternehmen Seelowe, because no sane person could think the Roman Catholic Church is vital to the C21st free world.
 
I didn’t realize there are no sane persons. 
 
So now ‘Professor’ Goldstone and ‘Professor’ Linch will explain to the country  why no-one could possibly interfere, even when I became crippled, why no-one could get me out of there, away from them.
 
Then these ‘giants of the University’ can explain why they dismissed all fact and reason out of hand.
 
If being left with severe spinal deformity is making a fuss about nothing, what is making a fuss about something in their fucking considered professional opinions.
 
Or perhaps they’d prefer Parker or Manningham-Buller or Rimington to do it for them.
 
I don’t suppose the horror of clearing my mum’s house, all three floors of it, did me any good either.  Without help because no-one could possibly help me.  Too busy sniggering and cackling at the horror of my life and my hoped-for impending destruction.  Especially enjoying my having to dispose of half my parents’ library.  Books are so pernicious, aren’t they, pure evil.  In the end I paid for help.
 
Been sorting out my computer.  Here are some pix of the horror.  Generally I took them for online booking with junk removal companies.

And that was once Katie's beautiful garden, which for years neither of us had been fit to tend.

If someone would just explain why in a free democratic rational and civilized country in the C21st these filthy sexually diseased freaks were ever left free in the first place to sink their filthy infected claws into my body and why those claws were enthusiastically with universal consent left in my body. 
 
There is no intellectual, political, moral or historical justification or in short no justification whatever for what has happened and is happening to me. 
 
Why it is universally agreed by politicians, religious, medicine, nursing, security services that there is absolutely nothing wrong, nothing anyone need say or do anything about, in causing me severe spinal deformity and throwing me on the scrapheap with it.
 
Just remember all these cunt-faced vermin, these subhuman pervert freak psychopathic sadist butchers did this to me in the full fucking knowledge that I had a major and obvious vulnerability.  Scum, filth, obscenity, evil, all of you, just pure fucking evil.  You're all just filth to me, evil and repulsive and obscene and stomach-churning vermin.